Four Walls Bending

by Emily Bezar

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This is modern classical vocal music performed by a rock band that speaks fluent jazz. Emily's kaleidoscopic sound is honest and true, full of passion, elegance, conflict and order with an emotional range and lyricism rarely heard in pop.

Song movements collide and split in waves and sheets of sounds. Angles appear from nowhere and dissolve into curves before they cut the air. Emily's gorgeously warm electronic keyboards weave a smoky, liquid psychedelia around her lush voice. From the majestic guitar screams of "Velvet Eye" to the pulsing keyboard hypnotics of "His Everything," she has created an opulent tapestry of sound.

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released October 1, 1999

Written and Produced by Emily Bezar
all music and lyrics ©1999, Blue Countess Music, BMI

Emily Bezar: vocals, piano, keyboards and sound programming
Morris Acevedo: guitar
Andrew Higgins: bass, cello samples on Track 4
Steve Rossi: drums
Michael Ross: guitar loops on Tracks 5 and 10

Recorded and Mixed by Justin Phelps
at Coast Recorders, San Francisco, CA
assisted by Mike Houge, Jamie Durr,
Yoko Kato, Dan Supko and Mark Fassler
Additional production on Tracks 4 and 5
by Justin Phelps and Andrew Higgins
Acoustic piano recorded by Tony Mills
at Spark Studios, Emeryville, CA

Mastered by Paul "Wintergreen" Stubblebine at Paul Stubblebine Mastering, San Francisco, CA

Photography by Christina Shook
Architectural photos of Frank Lloyd Wright's Marin County Civic Center, San Rafael, CA by Joe Atkinson, used by permission
Art Design by Emily Bezar

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Singer/composer Emily Bezar creates intricate, uncategorizable music, drawing freely from classical, jazz, rock, pop and electronic genres to create an enchanting, dynamic sound world.

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Track Name: Velvet Eye
worst case:
he’s a chain-letter lie
with the war-room stare
of a foreign spy
me, the west face
of a mountain in rain
a Florida key in a hurricane

I used to think I’d choose
my time to die
but like a flame thrown
to a blackened sky
I fell in
to his velvet eye

de oh derange me again
send this blind woman sight ‘til then
de oh derange me again
hey hey again

the first place
that I look for me
when the light is gone
and I cannot see
is my hand there
from his neck to toe
but I find his face and I can’t let go

it’s his game to lose, no chance to tie
but I’m ready for our last goodbye
if he’ll meet me
in his velvet eye

de oh derange me again
send this blind woman sight ‘til then
de oh derange me again
hey hey again

hail of the light
throne of the river
tell me how the retina feels
Track Name: Kingdom Come
he said that always
was better than nothing
said it always would be that way
said I always could find his shadow
somewhere down the waterway
but I knew I would never find it
and I knew he’d be on the run
and I knew he’d arrive faster
if he had a better gun

he said they offer a fast recovery
said it sting like a broken chain
well, I’m afraid of the feeling
so slip me down some novocaine
and it would be a shame to lose him
for less than infernal crime
but God don’t let me confuse him
he is his and I am mine

kingdom come, kingdom go
turn the lever
and may we meet again
when time is slow
angels fall, but never fall
fall together…
and I am no little domino

he said that always
was better than nothing
said it always would be that way
said I always could find his shadow
somewhere down the waterway
but tell me what would a life be
after everything here was won?
I bet it’s the same old chapter
different mother, different son

kingdom come, kingdom go
turn the lever
and may we meet again
when time is slow
angels fall, but do they fall
fall forever…
to greet the devil in the snow?
Track Name: Four Walls Bending
keep him away from the TV
hide all the nails in the room
leave on the light by the door
just in case he’s looking for you
say what you will, anything, nothing
I’ll still walk him to the end of the line
soon you will be a mother, a father
and I think you’ll know my mind

somebody help me
I am a fool for the little guy
all my intention...
would I? would I? would I? could I?

as the engine falls, as the engine falls
we stay inside with trains
barricade the dolls
a tumbleweed in flames...I see bocci balls
four walls bending, four walls bending
four walls bending in the squall

chains fall off of our lives but I am stalling
tangled, tethered till they put me down
years I thought I’d lost, maybe forever
they all seem like hours to me now
if whole cities were to go underwater
I could drain them, I would turn the tide
so I’ll call the plane, with any luck
he’ll veer toward the other side

somebody help me
I am a fool for the little guy
all my intention...
would I? would I? would I? could I?

as the engine falls, as the engine falls
we stay inside with trains
barricade the dolls
a tumbleweed in flames...I see bocci balls
four walls bending, four walls bending
four walls bending in the squall

I’ll stay with you here while they
irradiate the atmosphere
won’t fade away, won’t fade away
Track Name: Lead
this is the room, this is the chair
this is the wire holding me there
one man leans to the left a little
one arm on me
and I’m the middle ground
thrown to the fire, blade to the flame
and in a moment we knew his name
oh on this day another life is given
and I am thankful that I could hear the sound

who has not said ‘oh I could run away
while they are in bed?’
(tell everyone I’ve been found dead)
but as the moon is full of morning grey
my silk slippers turn to lead
hide the words I wrote that he never read
sinking through the floor, Ballet Russe in my head

for all that you say, all that you do
you may look away
when he first looks at you
I have no more than a life to give him
I have only the truth that I have found
keep me awake, keep me alive
give me a height I can still dive
oh I am changing but I’m still with you
I am more than the things
to which I’m bound

who has not said ‘oh I could run away
while they are in bed?’
(tell everyone I’ve been found dead)
but as the moon is full of morning grey
my silk slippers turn to lead
hide the words I wrote that he never read
sinking through the floor, Ballet Russe in my head

woke up bright, it was a sunny day
all the things I love were a featherweight away
when it’s right I want to stay
oh in the fight, eye of the riddle
grain of the wood, wood that I whittle
oh if you love me just a little
help this broken dancer sway
hold me now oh hold me now
and take this weight away
Track Name: Filigree Of Noon
daylight find me
in the corner of my room
daylight trace me
with the filigree of noon
from your courtyard
oh please come in, come in soon
for I am young and I have colors
to reflect for you

daylight fade me
into the color of his car
from my balcony
I can see to where they are
in my gold days
I might bleed but I won’t scar
now, I’m young
and I have tragedy
to spend on you

so my God will you open wide?
I have things to put inside
if I wither in your dark rays
what I have here won’t burn away

make a map around my eyes
make a map around my eyes
so I might free them

daylight find me
in the corner of my room
daylight trace me
with the filigree of noon
Track Name: Sigh
all the cries and the laughter
all the rules that we made
all the birds in the rafters
one by one, they flew away
all the rhymes that I borrowed
all the dreams counted on
I woke up for tomorrow
but didn’t find it, it was gone

I am free, I lie here
and I feel no shame
but I know if someone
calls me I won’t give my name
I’m the shade at the border
of his lightning spray
we were crawling forever
‘til he ran away

I know I’ll go over the ending
in black and grey
I go so slow
was I only pretending
to feel that way?

like a sylph in the forest
I could change in his hand
but there was something about him
I could never understand
now I’ve left him with forever
but he just leaves me one day
and the things I said...
I never meant, meant to say

I know I’ll go over the ending
in black and grey
I go so slow
was I only pretending
to feel that way?

sigh, my love
for the moon over the hill
is red and gone
shame on us for believing
in yesterday’s song
Track Name: Maybe So
let her go, let her go
she has turned certainly
to maybe so
a short goodbye to this old show
is better than losing her
long and slow
autumn rain and winter snow
will clean the love, freeze the pain
you’d never know…

let her go, and she will stay
in your mind like the first
green of May
what you see here will have to do
like the way that she first enchanted you
you may fall again some day
you’ll be needing all those things
she took away

but hold on, before she leaves
there is something you should know
about beautiful thieves:
she’s a short curve on a long scroll...
I still remember the words he stole

let her go, let her go
she has turned certainly
to maybe so
Track Name: Black Sand
some rusted coins
and a bottle of broken green glass
near the ocean
the water flowed to the
edge of the world from here
and on the level sea
summer ‘74 was floating
to the surface
it was cold and clear

from where I stand,
I see nothing but blue and sky
and two birds flying
it’s you and I in the space
of a thousand years
and what will we call it then?
will we call it love like we did
the evening Saturn reappeared?

like every fever must break before
the hallucination can,
I have a reason to stay
where I am

shade me
and leave me here with my lucky hand
wade me in
but let me down where I can stand
fly away while you still can
and ‘til the and ‘til the water away with me
and ‘til the and ‘til the water away with me
I will be here in the hot black sand

it is not far
it is not too hard to find the beach I'm on
I am a shell
and I will be the one you take to your ear
whatever followed you to the shore that
night, well you can be certain
it's now gone, my dear

like every dreamer who asks
‘where does the end of time begin?’
you can always find me right there
breaking in oh

shade me
and leave me here with my lucky hand
wade me in
but let me down where I can stand
fly away while you still can
and ‘til the and ‘til the water away with me
and ‘til the and ‘til the water away with me
I will be here in the hot black sand

all the love, all the rage
all the lines on the page
I believe I have paid
for what I feel
and how I feel it
overcome, overlaid
and so I wait
for the day
this wave washes me away
(on this beach do you wanna hold my hand
do you wanna lie with me
baby in the black sand
we can lie here ‘til the warning tide)

fly away while you still can
and ‘til the and ‘til the water away with me
and ‘til the and ‘til the water away with me
I will be here in the hot black sand
Track Name: Rondo
I like the way
he breathes as he plays
and I like the sound
of wheels going ‘round
we have a pact:
‘mama my friend
will you still love me
if I am late when that wall
it does bend?’

ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

I like the days
better than the nights
they say it's a phase
so I won't fight…
we had a plan
to stay on the green
now he walks through roses
and I get the thorn in me

in the loom where
my new yarn is tied
I weave us old and reading
he prettier than I
in the morning
fireflies burn out
oh but I know
that we will shine

la la la la la la la la la la
Track Name: His Everything
they walk over the skyway
onto the far court
and the flag says it’s a windy day
balls fly over the sideline
torpedo sunshine getting nearer
as I watch him play

I have nothing
for his everything
and together we wax and we wane
he’ll be offered all the world to sing
oh oh oh never lock it away

he climbs into the slow boat
and through the rocky bay we’re out
into the open sea
we row over to Iceland
and he’s a Viking sailor
but I, again, am only me

I have nothing
for his everything
and together we wax and we wane
he’ll be offered all the world to sing
oh oh oh never lock it away

down the road a way
he’ll grab the tetherline and stay
anchored in his ordinary room
rocks and beetle wings
and all the little things
remember life this way
may he always stray...

I have nothing
for his everything
and together we wax and we wane
he’ll be offered all the world to sing
oh oh oh never lock it away