Exchange

by Emily Bezar

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To purchase a signed CD of "Exchange" directly from Emily:
www.emilybezar.com/order.asp

"Exchange" is Emily's 5th self-produced album of uncategorizable, emotionally compelling music. If this is a jazz vocal album, then her musical references are an elusive, moving target, suggesting as much early 70’s electric fusion as tin-pan alley.

If this is a classical vocal album, analyzing whether it is post-post-minimalism or pre-pre-Schoenberg is a hard study. And if it is Art-Rock, well then you’ll have to find some room on the shelf between Hatfield and the North and Kate Bush’s early albums, but that won’t quite be the right spot either.

Emily's 2008 interview about "Exchange" with Beppe Colli:
www.cloudsandclocks.net/interviews/Bezar_interview08.html

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released July 31, 2008

Written and Produced by Emily Bezar
all music and lyrics ©2008, Blue Countess Music, BMI

Emily Bezar: voice, keyboards, string and horn arrangements except all violin parts on "Winter Moon", improvised by Alan Lin
Dan Feiszli: electric and acoustic basses
Mark Bernfield: drums
Michael Ross: guitar
Phillip Greenlief: soprano, alto and tenor saxophones
Chris Grady: trumpet
Jen Baker: trombone
Alan Lin: violin
Beth Vandervennet: 'cello

Recorded and Mixed by Justin Phelps
with additional recording by Scott McDowell and Emily Bezar
assisted by Laura Dean and Heidi Hansen
at Hyde St. Studio C and Tiny Telephone Studios,
San Francisco, Prairie Sun Studios, Cotati, CA
and Big Tree Studio, Oakland, CA

Mastered by Bernie Grundman
assisted by Joe Bozzi

Album Cover image by Emily's great uncle Ernest Freed (1908-1974), "Divina Commedia #4", 1969 (intaglio print detail, 18"x22")
Used by permission of the family.

Photography by Rory Earnshaw
Makeup by Renee Rael
Art Design by Emily Bezar

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Singer/composer Emily Bezar creates intricate, uncategorizable music, drawing freely from classical, jazz, rock, pop and electronic genres to create an enchanting, dynamic sound world.

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Track Name: Saturn's Return
traces of love in here....bring up the lights
forage, I will forage for the leftover nights
brains are wretched things, do you agree?
boring, was I boring?
or was I over the top too carefully?

I am beginning to enjoy this burn
the world won’t stop spinning
through Saturn’s return

so kiss me, then let me go
drain me and be gone
I’ll wait here for the moment
that the moonlight says carry on

I am beginning to enjoy this burn
the world won’t stop spinning
through Saturn’s return
and all through the moments
we live and we learn
I go on I go on away dear

you and I know it’s over
it was that day
she will not ever love you
again that way
yeah and I know it’s sad
but what could we do?
we met something much bigger
than me and you
so I’ll stick around here
for a little while
to cut and run is not my style
and all those changes
he put me through
just batting cages
for me and you for me and you

all of the rumors about me were true
but I thought that you had your own secrets too
all of the reasons we do what we do
are so much bigger
they’re so much bigger
than me than me
all my life oh all my life
all my love
oh oh oh...
Track Name: Anything They Say
broom on fire
quite a way from the flares of the Jenny Janes
to which you aspired
purple and green: everything came alive
for the synesthete in her red machine

brain and spleen
there is a line in the body that separates
the grit from the clean
trinity: that was the name of the man
who came to blur that line for me

and the room was ready for me
I did grow my own that day
can the light of God restore me?
I’ll do almost anything they say

shame on me
I never thought I’d be caught
at the very game
that you taught for free
you said, “wait and see,”
but by the time you were ready
I’d been shipped to the factory

and the room was ready for me
I did grow my own that day
can the light of God restore me?
I’ll do almost anything they say

oh I’m going….I’m finally on my way!
I want to know all worth knowing
before they blow this world away

oh the monsters are gone
and I know this house is safe for me again
oh life is not long
so will you come and save me again?
will you come and save me again?
I’ll do anything I’ll do anything I’ll do anything
anything anything anything anything
Track Name: Lament
if I tried to be the one again
who took you far
and took you wide
would you stay?
or would you walk out that door
and down the street
never look back this way

ageless and so young and overflowing
I was once my weight in gold
how sad to be over him
was I more than he could hold?

and all of the things we say
all of the things we do
come back to us
in oh so many ways
and oh in time
oh we will come down
the icy mountain range
to the green valley wide

ageless and so young and overflowing
I was once my weight in gold
how sad to be over him
was I more than he could hold?

crazy man
you did not know what you had
in your little hands
oh oh oh
I am sorry
is the only thing left to say
I am sorry
is the only thing left to say
Track Name: That Dynamite
seasons slow
like the last roll
of a rollercoaster
and summer dies
and the grass stains
are washed and gone
lovers show their true colors
in a Fall enchantment
and you, how could I know
you’d be there
in black and white for me?

I left something
top the Matterhorn for you
won’t you climb and find out
what the glacier always knew?
you’ll need more than just that
little ice-pick to get through
so take that dynamite
and let the avalanche
take that dynamite
and let the avalanche
carry you carry you carry you

traders know about the ratio
of the good to bad ones
they steal, they stow
then they sneak back
to their little holes

I left something
top the Matterhorn for you
won’t you climb and find out
what the glacier always knew?
you’ll need more than just that
little ice-pick to get through
so take that dynamite
and let the avalanche
take that dynamite
and let the avalanche
carry you carry you carry you

I’d rather be with you
in the middle of Spain
I’d rather be with you
in the very slow lane

jaded, yes, but enough light
here to bring the morning
and you, my guest, please
bring your dark ink to our afternoon

I left something
top the Matterhorn for you
won’t you climb and find out
what the glacier always knew?
you’ll need more than just that
little ice-pick to get through
so take that dynamite
and let the avalanche
take that dynamite
and let the avalanche
carry you carry you carry you
Track Name: Heavy Air
blue sky in the morning went grey the afternoon
he came without warning, but he was gone so soon
they said to be careful, that zing’s the zing of doom
but how was I to avoid it when it filled the room?

all the feathers in this heavy air
now float around the border of my bloody moon
someone teach me how to never care again
if he hates this tune

brave misunderstandings and loose little rules
the scars and the brandings we parade like jewels
but I still believe in the brute force of love
it storms, does not seep in, it will break, burn and shove

all the feathers in this heavy air
now float around the border of my bloody moon
someone teach me how to never care again
if he hates this tune

I am falling through the sky
baby galleons pass me by
all hands on deck! hoist the merry sails! aren’t we ready yet?
anchors aweigh anchors aweigh anchors aweigh
anchors awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

blocked and obstructed, still caught in the door
but I see the end of the hallway and it’s worth fighting for

all the feathers in this heavy air
now float around the border of my bloody moon
someone teach me how to never care again
if he hates this tune
Track Name: Strange Man
strange man, strange man
crying in your sleep
I wish I could wake you
and bring you back
from the deep

do you love me? do you love me?
or are we just marking time?
won’t you send a sign to show
it’s not just in my mind?

strange man, in the morning
when I go down to the sea
I scan the horizon
where your submarine
it waits for me

do you love me? do you love me?
or are we just marking time?
won’t you send a sign to show
it’s not just in my mind?
sink somewhere, where I can see you
oh the water here’s so clear
hurry up, unplug the drain
and let’s get outta here

where do the four-handers go
when they break outta
break outta break outta line?
and for all I know
you are already mine
oh it’s a long and lonely road
then we run outta
run outta run outta time
but baby I can show you how
to make this ending sublime

strange man
now you’re airborne
ride on through your clouds
some day I will hear you again
between my softs
and your louds
Track Name: Glory Or Crazy
why did I say
“no, I will not go again…
no I will not go again” ?
guess I wanted to stay
safe in my big mind ‘til then
safe in my big mind ‘til then
send me down there, to the win
I’m so ready to begin

grab it today
feel the life you never felt
feel the life you never felt
forfeit or play
but face the hand that you were dealt
face the hand that you were dealt
send me down there, to the win
I’m so ready to begin

hold that bright light deep in your eyes
radiate and burn to the sky to the sky to the sky

when I’m walking in shadows
running too slow
I want this one moment
to be all I know
the soul mansions that we give away
may all burn down any day
if I could change one thing
if I could let go
I’d release me from this carnival show
so roll me over on the breaking day
is it glory or crazy anyway?
is it glory or crazy glory or crazy glory or crazy?

hand me my sword I’ll go back into battle
hand me my sword I’ll go back into battle
to battle to battle to battle
send me down there, to the win
I’m so ready to begin
Track Name: Climb
rack and pinion hesitations, borderline incriminations
throw me anesthetic and I’ll breathe again
like a wayward tire in the road
I rolled right down and knocked him cold
now he has awoken and put me on hold

what you savin’ it for?
I am not a delusion, you could be mine
the day you walk through my door
heaven and earth, baby they will align
I have been so broken and blind
right about now is right about time
right about now the ladder works fine
later on you, you better know how to climb

spic or span, used or new, spin me ‘round, run me through
I could really use a few of those light light rays
proselytize, pontificate, adamantly stipulate
that you’ll give me the key to crash those pearly gates

what you savin’ it for?
I am not a delusion, you could be mine
the day you walk through my door
heaven and earth, baby they will align
I have been so broken and blind
right about now is right about time
right about now the ladder works fine
later on you, you better know how to climb

I can blow your little mind, blow it right away
you are one of my kind, knew it from that day
you will fade out in time, this I know is true
but now while she’s still standing by, oh what can I do?

I am changed by the birds, watching them so free in flight
I imagined that’s how you would love me
now I look beyond the sky, I’ll see you in that cosmic eye
I’ll dream you in jeweled vistas high above me

what you savin’ it for? are you just a delusion…all in my mind? is heaven more
more than we two deserve to find?
crazy like me, crazy like you, crazy in rhyme
everything old will become new…baby in time
climb, why don’t you climb?
climb, why don’t you climb? yeah yeah yeah
I have been so broken and blind
right about now is right about time
later on you you better know how to climb
Track Name: Winter Moon
a February day
your shadow long in Aberdeen
I thought you’d gone to stay
and the world made me love only you
I wanted to save me
but what could I do?
Paris all in white
the snow, light on the steeple’s edge
and then the rocket fell
how the light changed there
over the hill
barium rainbow, lydian thrill

though it’s cold
in the middle of your St. Germain
I know there’s love
flowing through those brittle veins
though the sun above me
never shines through
every winter moon is you

I heard it on the plane
they had closed the roads again
I thought I saw your train
pass through the forest
down towards the sea
away from the mess
I’d just made of me

though it’s cold
in the middle of your St. Germain
I know there’s love
flowing through those brittle veins
though the sun above me
never shines through
every winter moon is you

oh enslave me
let’s find some room on the other side
oh fantastic voyage with you again
cross the line, scale the fence
lose all of your common sense
I only want your present tense

hear me Lord, I’m free!
I have been to bedlam
and I found a part of me
now the light changes
over the hill
barium rainbow, lydian thrill

though it’s cold
in the middle of your St. Germain
I know there’s love
flowing through those brittle veins
though the sun above me
never shines through
every winter moon is you
every winter moon
every winter moon
Track Name: Exchange
make of my heart
silver, not grey
hold me again
like you did that day
so as the flower
leans towards the sun
I’ll always remember you
on the run

all over now and oh the sky
takes on a violet hue
I saw so much more in his eyes
than he ever knew

some things they won’t
ever come clear
so hold on to only
what holds you dear
don’t wait for him
to come back in range
save some of you
for the great exchange

all over now and oh the sky
takes on a violet hue
I saw so much more in his eyes
than he ever knew

falling in love again
making a new best friend
so it goes so it goes
‘til then…